I know I should be grateful. I know I should respect her, but can she just let things go? I've apologized ready and you're still completely ignoring me. Ya Allah please help me. I seriously feel so left out at home. It's been 3 days since you last spoke to properly. Eversince that night when you were having so much fun, I end up getting scolded. And it's all my friends fault. SHEESH. I don't wanna blame people. I just want things back the way they were. If giving me the cold shoulder is your idea of a punishment, hell it's working. And I try to mend things, it's left unappreciated. I apologize, you ignore it. What more can I do? Beg for forgiveness? You said people always make mistakes, they apologize and learn from it. So why now you can't forgive me? It's not like what I did was that bad. Hai.

Seriously, my efforts are futile. I wanna drop everything, exams, friends, life, but I know I can't. Allah is giving me a test. And this is how I handle it? By running away? Will it help? It won't. Yet somehow, I don't know what to do. My right hand, my Mum, is against me. My friends can't do much, so who else can I turn to? Suicide? Yeah right!
I am so gonna survive this ordeal. And when I do, as I look back, I'm gonna say "Hey, I went thru this, and I survived!"