I feel as though I was beaten, whipped, added sugar to and not to forget, chocolate chips. What a stupid analogy.

I understand that it wasn't the best performance. I felt horrible deep deep down and completely disheartened. But I feel that I did not deserve an in-your-face comment to stop what I enjoy doing and not continue doing it for the rest of my life. I respect you as a friend, as someone I can really talk to, but couldn't you have been a little more sensitive and sugar-coat your comment? I mean, people approached me and said stuff about it. It wasn't positive, but it didn't sting like yours. They commented about the chemistry on-stage, the weird scripts, hypothesis of an unrehearsed performance. I took it in and told myself to learn and use these to improve myself, for I have a tendency to just drop what I'm doing and move on instead of learning from them. I told myself when I was leaving the stage, any comments, take it in, don't bear a grudge, thank them and ponder. Everyone else mentioned something about the performance when they saw me, it got on ok til I asked for your opinion. You know I greatly value your judgement, after knowing me for quite a while. You know how much I love doing this. And yet you have the heart to just come on so harsh on me? Call me overdramatic, but do remember I was bracing myself for these critics as I knew how horrible the performance went. To say to stop doing what I enjoy and not doing it for the rest of my life? I thought I knew you somehow, you weren't my best friend, sure, but a close one. You really disappointed me.

Thanks a lot to those who said they liked my 'costume': Divya, Shehzadee, Aradhna and a few others. Thanks to those who tried to cheer me up, Zul, Wan, Zahrah, Fana, Lionel and more. I really apprieciate it.